Chipmunk Lands

lost all my wisdom–

All four holders of it.

here I am, Miss Chipmunk Cheeks,

soaking her feet with her mummy & Amor.

Candles lit, music playing,

Day 2 of sitting on the couch, movie marathons, smoothies & protein shakes.

Looking forward to getting out & about tomorrow, but sadly it’ll probably be the puffiest day!

My mummsie is the best,

bringing treats from home, spoiling me with love.

yup, even in the midst of the storm,

I am showered with love.

No umbrellas for me–

It’s amazing how a simple presence can help a recovery.

Misery loves company.


Conversational Generation

I just had a marvelous day off. 

Mi Amor’s grandparents are some of the neatest people. They are such an unusual pair, keeping things fresh and fun. Living only 20 minutes from their house, I came and assisted Mrs. T in the kitchen for a party. I met lots of people in the health care plan Mr. T works for. 

After lots of chatting, eating, a nap in the afternoon, assisting in technology & a second ‘neighbor’ party to finish off the munchies, I’m finally back to Poppins. 

I adore seasoned folk. Especially because of how much knowledge and experience they bring to the table. 

With the neighbors we ranged from talk of wine & travel to war & dogs. 

I made a few friends and got to know more about Mr & Mrs T. 

It just made me really look forward to experiencing more of life with them while Mi Amor’s under their roof. 

I also learned that I never cease to amaze people with my age. They always think I’m older & then impressed by how much I know and can bring to the table while being so young. 

{I like surprising people…I’m helping uphold the fact that not all of my generation is illiterate & un-engaging.}

A Time Of Chai & Smiles

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art… It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.” —C.S. Lewis

Iron sharpens iron, and one man sharpens another.
Proverbs 27:17

Relaying all that happened in the last two days isn’t possible now. My day with Rizo was incredible. Spontaneity & adventure twisted together with friendship & laughter on Friday. 

God blessed us with an ENTIRE day of each other…which hadn’t happened since August.

Aimless Autumn Walk


Tossing leaves in the street


contrast between autumn & summer, divided by a street


after dancing through the leaves


Walking back to Poppins with the setting sun


Life was terrible today

HA! I think not. 

I had a marvelous day today…and amidst my wandering feet on my evening autumn walk, I hadn’t known where I was going. I just wanted to embrace more outdoors after making stuffed green peppers for dinner. 

I was dancing and laughing like a ten-year old girl in this quaint neighborhood nearby, when I turned a curve, where my feet walked right up the sidewalk to a church, where I was greeted and before I knew it, singing…

I honestly, cannot explain the reason I went in. 

The message was on the balance of God’s justice and mercy. I think maybe I needed to be reminded of how much I don’t deserve love.
Thank goodness life’s not fair.
I received a bit of a mind wandering moment, thinking of how wrong my actions are, all the time. Every day my focus slides.

I was hit with how much my desires are put before God.

I should be loving God
loving people

grr. I despise my emotions sometimes. 

I’m not keeping Him first, and ya know what, sometimes it feels good.
Gah-I hate that it feels good at first.

Being selfish is so easy…

I’m so screwed up.

I am faced, once again, with my tattoo.
What anchors do I need to rid myself of? 
What’s holding me back from loving God? 

Autumn always helps me re-align myself…
Thank you, Big Guy, for moving my feet.



Zing Zip Bam

Its been a whirlwind of a July!
My brother got married to one of my best friends the end of June and for that weekend my family enjoyed each other’s company.
We had a beautiful end to June 2012.
Right away after the last of my family left on the 1st I packed up two suitcases; one for Cornerstone (week-long band fest) and the other for BayShore Camp (counseling Sr. High for a week).
I spent the first week of July sweating to death by the 100 degree dry heat.
Mi Amor and I volunteered and by doing so, met a lot of neat people…and crazy ones!
It was a blessing to see the bands whose hearts were really in it for Christ; because they all came for free on their own money. Cornerstone’s last year was 2012 so there was a tenth of the poeple there, making it harder for bands to want to come knowing that their only profit was from merchandise.
I went to some brutal concerts with Mi Amor, and our two friends.
I definitely went away having lost a couple pounds and having bruises all over. I did keep up my water intake and began another vegetarian challenge.
It was an amazing week. Memories forever!
Some bands really impacted me with their testimonies and music.
There was a theme concert put on by “Flatfoot 56” which was “Pool Party” so everybody brought their floaties and blow-up palm trees and giant whales and flippers. The stage had a playground slide which ended at the stage’s front. People would slide down and go right into a crowd surf (hardcore).
My big memories were me going into a couple circle pits at different concerts and losing my flipflops and getting my feet completely squished, sweating so much that my hair was dripping…and the creepy thing was, it wasn’t all MY sweat…yes, there were a lot of shirtless guys pushing to the front, where I stood my ground, and was forced to recieve their dripping sweat…bleh..
I discovered some new favorites,
and refreshed myself with past ones.
The week ended with a screwed up back because of the hard ground and only about five hours of sleep every night.
We drove back from Illinois where I drove myself to my house, to only be there for a couple minutes (enough to switch my pre-packed suitcase out with my stanky, rancid Cornerstone bag)
“Hello Mom!
Goodbye Dad!”
Hugs to each of them, and off I went.

Camp was insanely amazing-and a whole lot cooler in temperature.
Having been used to my sweat-filled, boiling heat index, 90 degrees with some lake breeze felt wonderful.
My co-counselor, Ashley & I were overwhelmed with joy, being together for the week. I could not have picked out a better mentor, cabin buddy, or friend that I needed more that week.
We counseled marvelous cabin 12 where a dozen freshmen and one post-senior would dwell.
I’ve never experienced more changes in my life, and visibly in others than the second week in July. God is so good, and so great, and so powerful.
He worked in so many lives, I was overcome by Him.
Ashely & I are both Words of Affirmation and Physical Touch as our love languages, so we were able to communicate and motivate each other quite naturally, without much effort.
I’ve never experience so many compliments and affirming words before in my entire life than I had at BayShore this year.
It’ll be like a drought for the rest of my life…hahaha
We challenged our campers to say/write at least two things to each other and/or other campers that week.
It began that very night after devotions.
The week changed immediately to a positive sanctuary where we encouraged others on in love.
My team for a lip-synch was fabulous and our message was to the song
“Same God” by Newsong
They portrayed it where the same God you experience here at BayShore, that love and security, can still be with you in your world at home or wherever you go from there.
We got fourth place.
It was a great encouragement despite us missing the announced top-three.
I was challenged in an abundance of ways and if I typed all of my details from the last couple weeks, you’d be sitting there at your computer for hours.
After that week, I brought my average to 6 hours of sleep a night for the past 14 days.
.yay me.
A wonderful Taco Bell run with my chica Ashley,
having our one-on-one time, resulted in a fabulous ending to a beautiful week.
I arrived home at 1a.m. send a quick good-night to my mom and slept horribly…my mind was just racing and finally being in my own bed, being able to breathe, of course, I just didn’t sleep well.
Waking up, I took my first REAL shower in two weeks (water spigots and 2 min. cold showers down count for me)
I hopped in the car with my parents and off we went to Ohio for the day.
I was able to chill with some good family friends and then we arrived home at 11p.m.
I crashed.
Sunday I was tired, but was encouraged by others at church and was able to encourage a good friend in his trials as well.
I got home, un-packed BayShore bags, cleaned my room and packed for a five-day getaway with Mi Amor.
He drove the hours with me chatting off his ear about all my events, until we reached his grandparents lake cottage, where they welcomed us with open arms.
Relaxation finally hit my spine as I unwound and inhaled deeply.

Delicacies of Days Off

Beginning of Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough CupCakes.. Yummm


Cookie Dough {eggless}


Cupcake batter {chocolate of course}


Batter up!


Drop of dough


Chill the frosting


Puffed up!


Simple delicacies of life



Sunshine & Nicknames

 “You may think that in life,
a lot of things happen to you along the way.
The truth is, in life,
YOU happen to a lot of things along the way.”

After a three-day trip to Grand Rapids, I sit here, wondering how many things have changed in my life within the last six months…
And now, the time has come for another big decision.

Sunday; church, drove 2 1/2 hours to meet up with Sarah and began our silliness together.
Met friends of hers, went to a wonderful student-led worship hour at Cornerstone University.
Got to know more about her life as we took a joyous walk
Monday; breakfast (Sarah’s treat–<3 her!)
Sat in her Creative Lit. class, randomly met up with a friend from high school (awesome sauce!)
Went to coffee and the Meyer Gardens with Mi Amor’s grandpa
Chilled with Sarah and her roomies.
FABBBUUULOUS coconut Ice Cream at Jersey Junction
Had a beautiful movie night, after a chat-it-up, officially ending at 3 a.m.
{special thanks to The Notebook}
 Tuesday; sundresses and flip flops–Sparrow’s coffee/chai latte
checked out the apartment that was seriously being looked into
more chattings with a roomie and lunch at The Soup Shop
Glorious God-stories and travelings
Leave for home:
2 1/2 hours later;
surprise Mi Amor after he worked, had THEE quickest “hello/goodbye”
Fueled up at $3.63 before I had to pay $4.00
Hugged an old friend
Went to a Positive Alternatives Board Meeting
{crisis pregnancy center}
came home, updated the dear parents 


whatttttttttt, three days have already gone by!?
choices, choices, choices.
First of all: got a new nickname (I hope it sticks…i like it)
Westie =]
‘Cause of two Sarah’s, one of us had to be called something else…and I’ve got no history with any body, so Westie was introduced and I like it.

I love my Sarah dearly;  God is seriously moving me to G.R. I can feel it.
And He’s using Sarah as His choice instrument :]
She is so special and dear to my heart,
I cannot wait to dive into this life.

Hard choices to make though, moving and all…
Prayers are definitely appreciated through this bizarre maze.

No matter what, I will effect people around me, I will happen to a lot of things. Me entering a different circle of life will change me, my surroundings, and people I’m with.
Uncertainty comes with a lack of confidence…I have such a passion for what God is going to do in the next six months, but am also very confused at what I need to be doing, to be His instrument.
I know God will let me know what I need to do, in His time…

…meanwhile, life back home goes on, and I continue to grow up….


{taken after the realization that it’s been YEARS since our last picture  together}