Songs of Healing

In recent desperation, I began using Bible verses and songs as my coping mechanism.
My aunt sent me a Thanksgiving card with the challenge to memorize Psalm 100…this was the first Bible verse I used instead of songs…interesting that it still is a Biblical song though…ha.
I encourage you to keep yourself calm by meditating on words and songs throughout your attacks or breakdowns.
We all need healing–so even if you’re not suffering from eczema, I know you’re heavy with something-whether for yourself, a friend, or a family member.
I always have the songs I have sung in church going through my head…some of these might be contrary to what you believe or know–but then, you are reading my blog for some reason…

Natalie Grant: Held
Laura Story: Blessings
Kutless: All Who Are Thirsty
The Old Hymns: It Is Well  & Be Thou My Vision

Day 2 of Bentonite Clay soak and Day 1 of carrot/apple juicing with Go Green for breakfast, raw carrots and yogurt/gogreen/diatomaceous earth for lunch and rice with cooked carrots for dinner. 


Screaming in and out

In the Bible there is a verse that asks, “…how long will they be incapable of purity?” Other versions say, ‘innocence’ as a replacement for the last word.

The band RED sings a song called ‘Confession’.
There is a line in the song that I say to myself sometimes.
“I confess, I’m always afraid,
always ashamed, of what’s inside my head.”

I hate it, I HATE, that I have lost some of my innocence.
I find myself thinking things that I don’t want to; saying things that I hoped never would come out.
At the end of the song, the band targets emotion from one whom actually feels and lives this song.
“Take this away; help me escape,
Take this away, I confess:

It is truly sad how the world has corrupted our minds.
Sometimes, I just want to pound my head with my fist to rid my mind of the world’s effect.
Thankfully there IS hope, and it isn’t through bodily harm.
There is a Creator who loves us, and cares for our innocence.
Crying out to Him, like in the song, will be His invite.
I need to constantly cleanse myself…I fail so many times to do this though.
Thankfully, God gives many chances
I just hope that you will realize that there is a Saviour out there who loves you, more than any girl or guy on Earth can…more than all your friends COMBINED!

O God; sweet Jesus; Holy One, within me…
Create in me a pure heart, mind, and soul.
Let me be cleansed with Your almighty love.
I confess: I’m not as innocent as I once was.
I’m screaming in and out.
Help me!

Melodious Addiction

Alright, so I have decided that I draw closer to Jesus through melodies. Some songs just have THAT chord progression//note sequence, allowing me to feel God right next to me.

In my church, this month’s closing chorus goes like this:

Jesus, draw me close, closer Lord, to You.

Let the world around me fade away.

Jesus, draw me close, closer, Lord, to You,

For I desire to worship and obey.

The melody of that song, just…gets me. I feel connected to the words and the music; turning my attention to Christ.

I tried to find the version that we sing in my church, online…but I couldn’t find it…so if you end up searching for this song over YouTube//google//etc. then it’s different.

And to me, when the melody changes, it changes the feeling. For some reason, I don’t connect as well, to the other versions.

Yes, I suppose that we all should praise God in all ways, but I can’t force myself to ‘feel’ the music…God made me that way. Only certain songs do I feel that closeness with God.

Hillsong//United//etc. do a lot of great worship songs, that are easy to fall in love with. Captivating your heart–they definitely major in it. 🙂

Lord, bless me this week as I try to focus on You more…

The Difference of Opinion

OK, I’m at work this morning and my co-worker says something to me about a song, sung by The Fray. She says, “I am not sure what they lyrics mean.” So, we decided to look up the lyrics and listen to the song at the same time. After giving each other our own, marvelous understandings of the song, we looked at the comments that random people around the world left, telling others their opinion on the song. I read them and some of them just blew me away…well, I will start by giving you the song:

You Found Me by The Fray

There was a ton of controversy on this song, I am amazed. Some of my favorite comments were these:

“I can relate to this. I think we as people always ask, ‘where were You?’ to God, when certain negative things happen in life. But, when the good things happen, do we as people say ‘thank you’ to God for being there? Sadly, we don’t always. I will certainly be more aware of that.”

“…God is always there for us, and when we perceive God finally helping us, we expected it sooner, when in reality He was always with us…God doesn’t separate from us, we separate from Him.”

“I think this guy is asking God where God has been, not realizing that He was always there waiting for him. He’s realizing that after everyone fails him, he then looks for God and finds that He is there waiting.”

These people, I feel, got this song pretty spot on. We always go through trials not remembering what Jesus’ brother, James told us:

“Consider it pure joy my brothers, when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.”

Sheesh, James gave us the answer right there…that’s what we are to do, find the joy in every situation, especially in trials. But, how often is it that we really do look to God, first thing? When we’re going through a tough spot, is it not natural tendency to go to our closest friend or relative?

My favorite comment and one that needs some applause was from this one guy who read the blog of Isaac Slade, the lead singer of The Fray. He said:

“Isaac Slade wrote, ‘You Found Me is a tough song for me. It is about the disappointment, the heart ache, the let down that comes with life. Sometimes you’re let down, sometimes you’re the one who lets someone else down. It gets hard to know who you can trust, who you can count on. This song came out of a tough time, and i”m still right in the thick of it. There is some difficult circumstances my family and friends have  been going through over the past year or so and it’s been overwhelming. It wears on me. It demands so much of my faith to keep believing, keep hoping in the unseen. Sometimes the tunnel has a light at the end, but usually they just look black as night. This song is about that feeling, and the hope that I still have, buried deep in my chest.”

Thank God for that guy going to the origin of the song!

So, its just mind boggling to me, the many differences of opinion that can be aroused by one song. People look at the same lyrics, to the same music, by the same people, and view it SO differently. It’s how people grow up, different things that affect their lives, how they were taught, new perspectives they’ve developed, and a whole bunch of things like that, those are why we have so many controversial topics in life.

Because We Are All Different.

I just felt like writing about this because well, its just so interesting to me how people think.