If you don’t, you know someone who does…

Eczema. Atopic Dermatitis. Psoriasis.
You pick—they all suck.
Help someone by letting them know they need to stop treating the outer symptoms and listen to them.
There’s something going wrong inside you.

I’ve been wondering what God has in mind with my continual struggle of skin issues; how is He gonna use this situation?
I’m putting the word out, for starts.

Steroid creams have terrible side effects if you stop suddenly from using them constantly. Comment on my post and I’ll help you know what to do.
Have you tried going gluten-free?
lactose-free? sugar-free?
seriously. You’ll be amazed at what treating your body internally does to your external beauty.

I’m going to do another post about an herb from the Bible:

Psalm 51:7
“Purge me with hyssop,
and I shall be clean:
wash me,
and I shall be whiter than snow.”

Hyssop has the chemical thujone which is antiseptic and also stimulates the central nervous system. But be careful, because in some people with more sensitive nervous systems, it can give seizures.. 

—Medicinal Action and Uses—Expectorant, diaphoretic, stimulant, pectoral, carminative. The healing virtues of the plant are due to a particular volatile oil, which is stimulative, carminative and sudorific. It admirably promotes expectoration, and in chronic catarrh its diaphoretic and stimulant properties combine to render it of especial value. It is usually given as a warm infusion, taken frequently and mixed with Horehound. Hyssop Tea is also a grateful drink, well adapted to improve the tone of a feeble stomach, being brewed with the green tops of the herb, which are sometimes boiled in soup to be given for asthma. In America, an infusion of the leaves is used externally for the relief of muscular rheumatism, and also for bruises and discoloured contusions, and the green herb, bruised and applied, will heal cuts promptly.

The infusion has an agreeable flavour and is used by herbalists in pulmonary diseases.

It was once much employed as a carminative in flatulence and hysterical complaints, but is now seldom employed.

A tea made with the fresh green tops, and drunk several times daily, is one of the oldfashioned country remedies for rheumatism that is still employed. Hyssop baths have also been recommended as part of the cure, but the quantity used would need to be considerable.

All in all, hyssop is seen a lot in the Bible.
In Exodus it is the ‘paintbrush’ for the lamb’s blood over the doorposts of the Isrealites during “Passover”.
In Leviticus it is used for cleansing the lepers.
another is
In John it is the last thing that Jesus’ tastes before He says, “it is finished.”I think its time to find some hyssop honey… apparently bees can really turn this stuff into some good yummies! 


Oh, Nurten, You’ll Help Somehow


This is kefir {keh-feer}
this is MY kefir
Thanks to a talk with another hospital worker, she gave me some of her kefir on Sunday. This is the picture of when I poured the milk into a glass and added more milk to the kefir jar.
Let me tell you what I know about kefir so you know what this crazy thing is I’m doing.

Just as each of our fingerprints is different, the bacterial content of the colon in each person is likewise different.—Kefir Blog


This is kefir uncovered; cauliflower is what it really reminds me of.

Kefir means “feels good” in Turkish

Unlike yogurt, kefir contains around thirty strains of bacteria and yeast, mostly including lactobacillus bacteria.–Grow Youthful

Do not keep your kefir in a metal container like copper, iron or aluminium. Preferably store it in a glass or ceramic container.
You can make kefir with nut milks, and nut kefir is apparently delicious. However the nut milk destroys the kefir grains, so you can only make it when you have got some spare grains.
{you get spare grains because it will continue to grow and grow in your jar. This allows you to give them away to friends who have health issues or who want to remain healthy. If you don’t have friends who can do this, then you have extra kefir grains}

Bacteria and yeasts typically found in milk kefir


l. brevis has been identified as the species responsible for the production of the polysaccharide (dextran) that forms the grains.
l. casei. Produces lots of lactic acid; colonises well in the gastric tract; creates a favourable medium in which other beneficial bacteria can grow; inhibits putrefaction and harmful bacteria; increases immune function; helps protect against bacterial infections.
l. hilgardii
l. plantarum. Produces lactic acid; fights listeria monocytogenes; makes plantaricin; inhibits a large number of Gram-positive bacteria – the type of bacteria that cause spoilage.
s. cremoris. Has similar properties to s. lactis.
s. diacetylactis. Produces carbon dioxide in the kefir; makes diacetyl, which gives kefir its characteristic odour; other properties similar to s. lactis.
s. lactis. Produces lactic acid, aids digestion, inhibits harmful microorganisms, produces bacteriolysins.


Kloeckera and possibly others.

Anyways, so this great probiotic is a alive and I’m calling mine Nurten. In Turkish it means “radiant skin”.

Day 1: the taste was a little tart and tangy–it reminded me of the ‘original’ flavor of frozen yogurt you can get at: TuttiFrutti, Sweetyos, Pink Berry, Pump House, or whatever other crazy name you have near you.
I blending mine into a shake though–since I can’t eat much on the anti-candida diet, I used this opportunity of tangy flavor to be a base for my “go-green” powder, carob powder, and ice. NutriBullet blended it wonderfully and it tasted pretty good. I’m willing to perfect the flavor. Maybe tomorrow I’ll do lemon and ginger? Worth a try at least.
The lovely lady who gifted Nurten to me told me that I should take the next few days to decide how much milk I should put in it to determine the consistency I like the best. Today I put in 2/3 of a cup. Tomorrow we shall see how different it was from today.

On to new adventures, new trials, new testings, and new beginnings.

Hard Ways to Learn Your Purpose

The resources are here. One year ago I began suffering from candida-induced eczema. Why is it that our bodies can scream “something is wrong!! Stop doing this!!’ but our brains don’t understand what ”this” is. Finding the root of any problem takes a lot of time..which requires patience…something I’ve tattooed my body with in order to remind me that God needs to be the leader and director-situations aren’t for me to control, but are an opportunity for His strength and power.

You can go back through my archives and see only a few posts in early 2013 that showcased my eczema. It is a hard topic to talk about, but as it has covered my body, it is getting easier to be translucent about it and use this vulnerability for good.

I question what my purpose is, aside from my ultimate purpose to worship my Creator, despite the hardships that invade. How does He want me to use my story and my passions…what are my passions anyways? And ya know what my husband said, “you should pray and ask God to show you what your passions are.”
I love being married.

So, I have been praying about it. The more I ponder it in my head, the more it makes sense that eventually I’ll be helping heal people in a different way than I am now. I can see how this spot that I’m in now, being in pharmacy, has helped me understand the side of medicine that is so bittersweet. But, I definitely don’t know enough.
Modern medicine has its pros and cons, just like herbals do.
I believe, from my pharmaceutical side, that too many people use herbs without knowing their toxicity and herb-to-herb interactions. Ignorant use of even herbs can be dangerous.
But, I also believe, from my earthy side, that too many people use drugs as their ‘answer’ when all they really are doing is treating the symptoms and not asking “WHY is my body reacting this way, WHY are these two things happening at the same time, WHY did this happen so soon?”…etc…

Maybe God is using my eczema to say, “Sarah, this is where I want you, and now that you’ve been through this horribly hard journey, you’re prepared even more…that’s right, I’m preparing you, preparing you for My glory.”

Treasures of Christmas Healing

Tuesday was my last day of work, {Christmas Eve} and we headed to the east side to spend time with Mi Amor’s family there.
You know, those treasured moments of spending time with family have a certain added magic in these crispy winter months. Christmas Eve and Christmas Day were spent with my new family and while sipping tea, I observed a moment…one of those ‘pause’ moments… breathing in the scent of cinnamon spices from my tea, my mind went to the blessing of gaining four new brothers, two wonderful parents, and two sets of grandparents….{and of course other extended family!!!} Mi Amor has shared his family with me in such a touching way, I know its just how marriage works; you gain your spouse’s relatives, but I think that giving me equal rights to calling his family my own is a great honor. Food was eaten {while I stuck to my specific regime of yogurt, nuts, and cinnamon for breakfast…cauliflower and celery for lunch…tea throughout the day and munching on pecans, almonds, and peanuts for snacks…then some more spiced yogurt for dinner [its a wonder I’m able to stick to this]} Christmas evening we headed back to our home to pack and prepare for our trip! December 26th we headed to Mi Amor’s other grandparent’s house to celebrate with them. Sledding definitely happened and lots of chatting. At midnight we made it to bed and at 3:30a.m. we woke up to head to the airport.

Here we are, in Minnesota, playing lots of games and treating family like gold. My grandpa, he has had cancer for a very long time…but God has blessed him with lack of pain. Dinner last night was an opportunity for me to be translucent with him. If you know me at all, I hate crying, but after I went to Panama I became an emotional pile of mush. I know I’m not dealing with cancer, but I can relate to him; we’re both dealing with an attack on our bodies that we did not choose, nor can we heal from completely, it effects not only our bodies, but our emotions and the people around us.

I’ll admit, I’m scared to lose my only blood-related grandpa. I want healing for him…but I’m overwhelmingly thankful that he doesn’t deal with pain.

The Lord has given us wonderful parents who have given us plane tickets for a Christmas present. My husband has been exposed to the most emotional Christmas of my life thus far. Having this time with relatives going through struggles and dealing with the curses of this world has made me look at my hands…actually, its made me thankful for the ability to use them to serve over this Christmas. I’m getting back to my old crazy self…at least I’ve felt more myself. My mind has had times of freedom from these chains on my hands. I want to use them! I’m taking the opportunity while I can to bend them and hold things and do acts of service. I don’t know how long this little session of bliss is going to last but there’s three more days of 2013 and I’m hoping the new year will bring healing.

If this issue had to happen, I’m thankful that it has allowed me to relate to people who struggle with an ailment. I’ve been transformed into a pit of compassion while wanting to search deeper into other’s health problems…what is the cause>>WHY is your body reacting like this or what has changed?

I’m still sticking to the Anti-Candida Diet and eating yogurt with cinnamon twice a day. I spit into a cup of water this morning, first thing, and the water only got cloudy, so this is an improvement. My hands don’t look AS bad, but still no complete healing. I haven’t had this long of a ‘clean’ streak without large sums of itching/scratching or pain since September. This has enabled me to actually be part of this Christmas.

I believe that God is with us and He longs that we love Him and have faith to believe. I don’t want to be conquered by this, not now, not when I’ve started to become myself again…

Keep shining and sharing your healing story with others,
you don’t know who’s life you’re going to change. 

My Spit Tells Me So

Ever hope you’re a walking miracle? Ever want something to happen to you that’s so bizarre that it can only be answered by, “God did this!” 

Last night, I woke up at 2a.m. and I put some sulfur soap on my hands to wash them, after that it hurt to bend my hands still, but I felt better about starting with a good clean base. I applied my calendula salve and some jojoba oil, then snuck back under the covers but kept my hands hanging over the side, so that the sheets wouldn’t get slathered.

I began singing my songs to fall back asleep…I woke up this morning and took a room temp glass of filtered water and spit in it before I drank or ate anything. The weirdest thing happened–my spit didn’t float atop the water, it started moving down and created little tunnels or ‘legs’ and then after fifteen minutes a little cloudy patch settled at the bottom of the glass.
Click HERE to check out this test.

Candida overgrowth is weird…
But I’m convinced that’s what this is.
Click HERE to read about the link between candida and eczema

So for now, I’m layin’ low, chillin’ with Rizo all day since she got her wisdom teeth removed this morning! I’m glad my boss let me use PTO to get the day off..God is good.
I continue on my healing trek, being excited about myself (for the first time in a long while) and the fact that God has given me GREAT resources to help others.

Oh and my skin, it peeled off…the top layer of my skin flaked off in little pieces, which I used a brown sugar and coconut oil scrub to get off safely.
I think my hands are on there way to being vessels of service again…it hurts and itches still, doesn’t look different, but feels like new soft skin is breaking through…
.Hold Fast.

Songs of Healing

In recent desperation, I began using Bible verses and songs as my coping mechanism.
My aunt sent me a Thanksgiving card with the challenge to memorize Psalm 100…this was the first Bible verse I used instead of songs…interesting that it still is a Biblical song though…ha.
I encourage you to keep yourself calm by meditating on words and songs throughout your attacks or breakdowns.
We all need healing–so even if you’re not suffering from eczema, I know you’re heavy with something-whether for yourself, a friend, or a family member.
I always have the songs I have sung in church going through my head…some of these might be contrary to what you believe or know–but then, you are reading my blog for some reason…

Natalie Grant: Held
Laura Story: Blessings
Kutless: All Who Are Thirsty
The Old Hymns: It Is Well  & Be Thou My Vision

Day 2 of Bentonite Clay soak and Day 1 of carrot/apple juicing with Go Green for breakfast, raw carrots and yogurt/gogreen/diatomaceous earth for lunch and rice with cooked carrots for dinner. 

Vulnerability for Your Healing

Just because I believe in God doesn’t mean I don’t struggle with this…I’m going to make my self vulnerable and share with you lots about my journey from now on. I hope someone else can find healing along with me. Against my need to feel beautiful, I’m putting myself out there at the end of this post and sharing pictures of my journey…I didn’t take many consecutively because who wants pictures when they’re at their worst?

“Choose to see your experience through God, rather than God through your experience.” {My dad}
This sentence pierced my heart. Think about it for a moment.

God never changes, so why do we let our circumstances change our opinion of Him? This is what it means to be held. God doesn’t only allow issues and says “you’re on your own, pal..”

He allows trials and says :

Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. {Matt 11:28}

Delight yourself in Me and I will give you the desires of your heart.{Psalm 37:4}

Consider it pure joy, when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. {James 1:2&3}

In Isaiah 40 it says “Why do you say, O Jacob, and complain, O Israel, ‘My way is hidden from the Lord; my cause is disregarded by my God’? Do you not know? Have you not heard? the Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and His understanding no one can fathom.”

God wants the love of His creation…just like you who have children want the respect and adoration of them, you want them to love you and look up to you…those of you who have spouses, you want to please them and make them happy. You also desire their entire being, you want their faithfulness and commitment…well, God is a jealous God who wants pure hearts. He wants to know you’re serious about Him, captivated, in awe, head-over-heels for Him. Trials prove your love, like fire to gold; all the impurities burn away, and all that is left is beauty.

I’m in agreement with C.S. Lewis, when he said,

“If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world.”

If it wasn’t for my faith, I wouldn’t have a hope of an end for this. My eczema isn’t going to be on my body forever–I was meant for the perfection of Heaven…

He will wipe away every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away. {Rev. 21:4}

I’m currently struggling, struggling for an answer…for some hint of healing…but all the while, it is well with my soul…
I got a foot detox yesterday–hoping for some healing answers…I was confirmed with digestive issues… the Lord has given me resources…and parents who still take care of me and their love abounds greater and greater as I understand it more and more.
Mi Amor and I were talking as we were driving, what we’ve learned from this, how our characters have been challenged, and where we’ve been strengthened.
I made a mental list of his answers so that I can be thankful for what this has done to stretch him into a better man. I now try to meditate and give thanks with a grateful heart when I get an attack…

Make me a servant, humble and meek, Lord let me lift up those who are weak, and may the prayer of my heart always be, make me a servant today. {old song from my childhood}

No matter your situation, we all need healing.
After the blessing of the foot detox and some guidance, and a bath robe..which I am wearing right now, I left with more assurance of God’s guidance. I left work early today because of an attack and now I’m sitting here doing a Bentonite clay mask on my hands and feet/ankles. I have plastic bags over my hands and water on the stove with some essential oils on it, instrumental music playing and the Christmas lights on. I am going to eat minimal food for the next who-knows-how-long, just so I can hope at some healing.
Carrots, freshly juiced with some “Go-Green” powder will be my breakfast. I will have a banana for a snack, carrots and homemade yogurt with flaxseeds in it will be my lunch(with some “Go-Green” in it) and rice with carrots will be my dinner.
I will live off of bananas, carrots, rice, and yogurt for a while.
I’m going to try to blog every-other-day to keep myself accountable. I realize that crap about lack of nutrition but ya know what, eczema is worse–believe me. I want answers, and elimination diets haven’t worked, so we’ll just go down completely and add in something after I start to heal.

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