Childhood Pushing For Winter

Pumpkin, Apple, Chai, & Carmel slowly fade as Winter pushes Fall into the past. 

Pine, Cinnamon, Hot chocolate & cookies take center stage as November rolls in. 

Coffee shops, like the one I’m in, always make me feel so much more inspired.

Our new living room arrangement does look magnificent, if I do say so myself.

Rizo & I stayed up late last night, after I got back from work, dreaming of help exchanging.

She’s got this great plan for France.

I honestly, envy her. She has so much freedom. She’s able to just go & leave everything, being fully present while adventuring to other countries.

I have lived in Grand Rapids the same amount of time as I lived in Panama.
I can’t imagine doing that again for that long at this point in my life.

Being fully present…

Jim Elliot said “Wherever you are, be all there”

My heart is so much entwined with Mi Amor’s, that I can’t imagine being three thousand miles away, rather than 2 and 1/2 hours.

Rizo told me at one point, she’d just go and perpetually travel, help exchanging everywhere. And ya know what, its TOTALLY possible for her. 

I can’t express enough how much I envy that. 

Its not possible for me to be fully in Europe for three months. My heart would long for home. Oh, how funny our hearts are. 

I talked with a British pharmacy intern two days ago, I asked him about England and Bath-where he’s from. He made me want to just up and leave.
& last night with Rizo, she said, “You should come with me to France!” And I was all for it…but having my ‘big girl pants on’, I’d lose my job if I did that. 

growing up is hard to do

Fall had to leave itself behind for Winter to push its way forward though…just like I must continue to push my childhood back, continuously making room and striving for changes of adulthood.

~~~And I also feel like most of my blog posts are ALL-OVER-THE-PLACE…nothing really connects them~~~
So feel free to ignore my rantings


Mediterranean Bedsheets

Yesterday my room was completed.
I’m sure it’ll change a little, here and there, but for the most part.

Sonrisa and her man, making yummies!

Our Mediterranean style food ❤ delish!

My room from the doorway (yes, I have a door in my room, it goes to a cement porch that I use for my herbs!)

My mommy made my quilt! It’s called {trip around the world}
Fits my style perfect, don’t ya think!?

Those curtains are to my closet-it has shelves and is WONDERFUL…and somehow I have a lot of clothes and need all of the space AND my dresser..goodwill trip? yes.

I am doing kitchen stuff today–lots of washing dishes!

I’m going to another interview today, St. Mary’s again!

Apparently, another lady was told about me and wants to introduce me to ‘inpatient’ pharmacy work, to see if I’d be interested in a full-time position there!

His blessings are an ever-sprinkling downpour.


Wow, have I missed writing.

So much has happened, between saying “goodbye” to my parents, to enjoying a bowl of my favorite cereal.

In short, Rizo and I left at 7a.m. on Tuesday morning with a car load of my stuff and a truck-load holding our big pieces.
After getting our very own sets of keys, we began the escapade of placing things in our house.

For now, our house’s name is “Poppins” {subject to change} because we can fit so much stuff in here, even though it doesn’t look like it should hold it all. (and it still is spacious!)

I’ve half-switched banks and have had two interviews that are extremely promising.
God is good.

On my morning jogs I’m trying to use as my “God-Time” cause I just really need to focus on Him more.

I’ve come down in my relationship with Him, I feel.
I want to start focusing more, but with the whole new experience of life here in the Grand Adventure, I’m sure it’ll take a lot of work to stay on track.

My other roomie, whom I will call Sonrisa, is SO precious.
I am WAY blessed to have Rizo and her.

Went grocery shopping yesterday and got my favorite cereal, so this morning has been absolutely fabulous!

Rizo and my first meal was blueberries that my mom and I picked and almonds from the Amish store. A poor girls dinner for our first night, Tuesday.

Continue to pray that I trust God in my job opportunities. I really have a peace here though.

Another little trip that happened was the Vivant brewery where Rizo’s sister works. Sonrisa, her man, Rizo, and I went and got root beer floats (with  fromage blanc flavored gelato)

I’m going to start getting kitchen stuff put in place now!

This was our first sit-down dinner.

I’m Moving Away

Some of you may know my pursuit of Grand Rapids,
and now, it’s finally worked out.
{{Well, this part at least}}

I am officially going to the west side of the state the first of August!!!

A wonderful living situation was established and pursued by my lovely childhood bestie–whom I will from now on call Rizo.
God truly set up a beautiful preface to this Grand Story.

I’m as overwhelmed as a new pup when it discovers the fun of dry food. Ya know when they just lay on the floor, paws sprawled out, tongue lapping up in an A.D.D. fashion…yup, that’s me…figuratively nonetheless.

I’m like flipping out in the realization that I’m gonna be seriously leaving. Of course visiting is important and I will miss many things of home, but the adventure and experience of it all is what I’m looking forward to most.

My dad has taught me so many wonderful traits from character and cars to finances and theology.
My mom has been faithful in raising me to enjoy the kitchen duties and sewing as well as basics such as laundry and gift creativity.
I know how to can jellies and applesauce as well as grape juice.
I continually seek wisdom as I know my luxury days of having their examples everyday of my life is slowly fading away.

Observance is key.

OH! And I got a summer hair cut; nice and short.
Hopefully Mi Amor will love it.

Well, I believe I’ve ranted enough for the night…excuse me for I need to go on Pinterest now and religiously look over the home decor pages.

Sunshine & Nicknames

 “You may think that in life,
a lot of things happen to you along the way.
The truth is, in life,
YOU happen to a lot of things along the way.”

After a three-day trip to Grand Rapids, I sit here, wondering how many things have changed in my life within the last six months…
And now, the time has come for another big decision.

Sunday; church, drove 2 1/2 hours to meet up with Sarah and began our silliness together.
Met friends of hers, went to a wonderful student-led worship hour at Cornerstone University.
Got to know more about her life as we took a joyous walk
Monday; breakfast (Sarah’s treat–<3 her!)
Sat in her Creative Lit. class, randomly met up with a friend from high school (awesome sauce!)
Went to coffee and the Meyer Gardens with Mi Amor’s grandpa
Chilled with Sarah and her roomies.
FABBBUUULOUS coconut Ice Cream at Jersey Junction
Had a beautiful movie night, after a chat-it-up, officially ending at 3 a.m.
{special thanks to The Notebook}
 Tuesday; sundresses and flip flops–Sparrow’s coffee/chai latte
checked out the apartment that was seriously being looked into
more chattings with a roomie and lunch at The Soup Shop
Glorious God-stories and travelings
Leave for home:
2 1/2 hours later;
surprise Mi Amor after he worked, had THEE quickest “hello/goodbye”
Fueled up at $3.63 before I had to pay $4.00
Hugged an old friend
Went to a Positive Alternatives Board Meeting
{crisis pregnancy center}
came home, updated the dear parents 


whatttttttttt, three days have already gone by!?
choices, choices, choices.
First of all: got a new nickname (I hope it sticks…i like it)
Westie =]
‘Cause of two Sarah’s, one of us had to be called something else…and I’ve got no history with any body, so Westie was introduced and I like it.

I love my Sarah dearly;  God is seriously moving me to G.R. I can feel it.
And He’s using Sarah as His choice instrument :]
She is so special and dear to my heart,
I cannot wait to dive into this life.

Hard choices to make though, moving and all…
Prayers are definitely appreciated through this bizarre maze.

No matter what, I will effect people around me, I will happen to a lot of things. Me entering a different circle of life will change me, my surroundings, and people I’m with.
Uncertainty comes with a lack of confidence…I have such a passion for what God is going to do in the next six months, but am also very confused at what I need to be doing, to be His instrument.
I know God will let me know what I need to do, in His time…

…meanwhile, life back home goes on, and I continue to grow up….


{taken after the realization that it’s been YEARS since our last picture  together}

Blowing Dandelions

I have had a great couple of days off of work.

Starting Thursday, I went to the Detroit Institute of Art with Mi Amor and his grandparents.

After a full Thursday of traveling through time, my Friday was spent with some friends at Great Lakes Crossing, where we walked, laughed, and sought out great deals.

Saturday was a catch-up day with my soon-to-be-sister-in-law. Dancing on a bridge and going back through old photos had smiles on our faces. The day ended with a game night, lasting till 3a.m. with our college-age ministry group (Encounter). 
Sunday was a morning of acoustic guitars, violin, and upright bass anda great message on the faith of the centurion was spoken by the Pastor.  
Catching up with other friends after church was marvelous as well, talking guitars and travel and life. 
After an introduction to Pier1, I was gone in lala land. I absolutely LOVE that store, officially finding my connection to the perfect combination of home decor style/fashion/comfort and most importantly, SALES.

Eating chinese with my parents, Lizzie and her mom, swirled together with so much laughter I was able to see the rarity of my dad almost crying with hilarity. 

I came home to a perfect package from my cousin, equipped with memories lighting up my face, along with a postcard from Paris, written by my lovely and indescribably amazing friend who has been over in Europe since last Summer. 
And of course, I went running.

Mi Amor exposed me to even more Star Wars to lessen my hate towards it, while we ate frozen yogurt and popcorn. 

This morning ranted and dreamed and laughed with a beautifully passionate soul–my childhood bestie.
Talking to her is the perfect blend of character from the early double digits with the intelligence of the early second decade…at least I like to think so.  

And after all this…I might be moving to Grand Rapids. (about 99.9% assured)




Ever feel like your blowing the dandelion, making the wish, while its actually happening?

Deeper Seas

  • First day of work—check
  • Re-learned how to knit—check
  • Bought new chapstick (cause my insane collection is running out)—check
  • Get my brain running to make a leather-cord watch—check
  • Learned how to change the oil in my car—check
  • Make my car smell good—check 

Yeah, I feel accomplished !
I have done a lot in the last few days.
Today, especially, was a good day; I learned a lot of new stuff:

  • It’s incredible how much brain power it takes to be a cashier//bagger
  • Never underestimate the power of coupons
  • It’s always a humbling experience being a newbie
  • All the jazzical things that come with learning a new job 
  • I forgot how amazing paper bags are–almost vintage 🙂


It’s all pretty much a learning process for the next five days of work.
I’m glad that I’ll get tomorrow off, so that I can go to Encounter to worship my Lord with college-kids though.

I was hit with the realization of how different this job will be from H&R Block because…

1. I have many more co-workers
2. I have  more scheduled and punctual need
3. I may be more of a light for Christ at this job…

and to tell you the truth, I’m sorta nervous about that point…
I know that I naturally am proud of my Saviour, but I don’t want to proclaim it so that people are turned off and ignore me.
I think that if I just keep living with an attitude of love, then I’ll be a light in my own way–but when it comes down to it, when people find out that I am a disciple of Christ, I pray that they won’t shut down.

My trainer is a wonderful young woman, whom I will fully enjoy getting to know.
She might be one of the first people to know that I’m a disciple, but then again, maybe people will only see the difference and ask me, and not just ‘hear the gossip’.

Well, either/or, I’m going to be under a lot of mind escapes these next few months, with being trained as a cashier and pharmacy technician.
I think I did great today, but my trainer is so great at being constructive in her advice. It’s really a great opportunity that I have, to learn another skill and be in even more of a spot to be a witness for Christ.  

I’m being swallowed even more into the sea of life…growing up has its pros and cons…