Screaming in and out

In the Bible there is a verse that asks, “…how long will they be incapable of purity?” Other versions say, ‘innocence’ as a replacement for the last word.

The band RED sings a song called ‘Confession’.
There is a line in the song that I say to myself sometimes.
“I confess, I’m always afraid,
always ashamed, of what’s inside my head.”

I hate it, I HATE, that I have lost some of my innocence.
I find myself thinking things that I don’t want to; saying things that I hoped never would come out.
At the end of the song, the band targets emotion from one whom actually feels and lives this song.
“Take this away; help me escape,
Take this away, I confess:

It is truly sad how the world has corrupted our minds.
Sometimes, I just want to pound my head with my fist to rid my mind of the world’s effect.
Thankfully there IS hope, and it isn’t through bodily harm.
There is a Creator who loves us, and cares for our innocence.
Crying out to Him, like in the song, will be His invite.
I need to constantly cleanse myself…I fail so many times to do this though.
Thankfully, God gives many chances
I just hope that you will realize that there is a Saviour out there who loves you, more than any girl or guy on Earth can…more than all your friends COMBINED!

O God; sweet Jesus; Holy One, within me…
Create in me a pure heart, mind, and soul.
Let me be cleansed with Your almighty love.
I confess: I’m not as innocent as I once was.
I’m screaming in and out.
Help me!



I just haven’t found the time to put up a new post! Busy busy.

A while back, my mom had asked me if I had interest in going to WinterJam, I replied, after seeing the bands playing, “Ehh, there aren’t really any that I listen to a lot…so…no”
This past Wednesday, Cameron asked me to go, I replied, “Sure” (or something like that)
It’s amazing the change of heart when he asked me..pahahaha

I am totally glad that I went. I realized after going that my heart was totally in the wrong place when my mom asked me and maybe when Cam asked me too.
It’s not about WHO will be there, it’s about HOW I can praise God and give thanks to Him for all He has done for me.

The bands that lead the oodles of people are wonderful God-lovers and I need to be thankful that I have that opportunity for Spiritual uplifting through them.

My focus has shifted too much towards how amazing the lead guitarist is, or how fantastic of a voice the vocalist has, or the abilities of the band altogether.

God, help me refocus on You and show me how to live for You more than what this Earth has to offer.

Matthew 6:33

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.

Open Passage

Isn’t it awesome that there are no hidden passages in the Bible? Like, everything is laid out for us, it’s open and free for us to read…at least in America.

I am so grateful for my freedom and the way that I can just pick up my Bible at anytime and read out of it,  in public even.

Today I’d like to share with you one of my recent random-flipping-through-the-pages-verses, that I found while basking in the happiness of the sunshine.

PSALM 143:8

“Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in You.
Show me the way I should go,
for to You I lift up my soul.”


I just love it.

Reminiscing the Ranting

So, I have discovered that by reading the writings of others, you get to know their personality and their life. Blogging is a perfect example of this. In connection, I have begun to realize that the works of some authors in the Bible kinda have this blog-like similarity.

Paul, is the writer of thirteen books in the New Testament. I am focusing on a specific spot; Philippians 1:21-26.
“If I am to go on living in the body, this will mean fruitful labor for me. yet what shall I choose? I do not know! I am torn between the two: I desire to depart and be with Christ, which is better by far; but it is more necessary for you that I remain in the body. Convinced of this, I know that I will remain, and I will continue with all of you for your progress and joy in the faith, so that through my being with you again your joy in Christ Jesus will overflow on account of me.”

It kinda makes me laugh, “I do not know!”…he’s ranting in a way; writing down his thoughts, to make clear his situation and to work it out in his mind.

I do this all the time! In mid-discussion with a person, I sometimes end up tripping over myself in thoughts, so I start ranting aloud, seeing what my brain will say about this certain topic. It’s the weirdest thing ever! I mean, I am usually good at thinking before speaking, but on certain subjects, I will be speechless unless I just let my brain flow; uncertain of what I’m about to hear myself say.

So, back to Paul. I think that just by the way he writes and if I lived in his time, I would be a great friend of his. He is such a wise and godly man, that I would probably ask if I could be his ‘water-girl’ or ‘scroll-holder’ or something silly like that, just so I could hear him speak.

Sometimes, I think we all forget that the authors of the books in the Bible, were really human. But, the way that Paul writes, makes me think I’m reading love notes, blogs, or a journal//diary of his. It’s so human; normal; fitting to this day in age.

No one wants to read anything that is perfect. Everything must have flaws-no book need be written without them.

Flaws are what make things closer to reality. The Bible is like an oxymoron; it’s a miraculous reality; immortal mortality; actual abstract; then but now.

It has all of these in it and it makes the Bible more interesting to read.

Hmm..just some random thought 🙂