Love Under Smog

How do I begin?

My last post was 19 days ago..explination: I left my computer cord at home…and brought back a dead laptop…which equals no blogging for me.

I missed blogging my thoughts…a lot.

I have had so much happen I think I’m just going to rant about how marvelous it is to share life.

Mi Amor came and visited, staying  with his grandparents (where he’ll live starting in three weeks; my count down chain is getting shorter!)

I worked Thanksgiving…making it feel like it really wasn’t the end of November…I still don’t feel like I’ve had Thanksgiving, even though yesterday my parents came and visited, bringing leftovers!!!!

I loved sharing life last weekend with two of my guy friends, Jersey & Mumford. Jersey’s brother, Sky was a great addition to the trio.

Sky, Jersey & I hung out a lot, watching two movies early into the morning, then the next day after coffee, a walk to the Farmer’s Market & their invitation to go to a concert–I ended up having a very sleep-deprived weekend.

Then my consecutive days of work continued with free time used by reading books, baking, cooking, knitting, and surviving without my laptop.

Then I made it to Mi Amor’s cousin’s play, based off the story of “The Princess and the Pea”, which was so wonderful.

Found out I am getting all four wisdom teeth pulled in January…

And that my parents are buying me a plane ticket to Minnesota for Christmas!!!

After the blessings of a wonderful weathered week, I ran outside as my workout and was inspired to have brighter days, looking for God’s rainbow sprinkles.

Then this past weekend rolled around, enabling me to spend time and share life with some of my most cherished souls.

A beautiful time was shared with Mi Amor and my parents, I woke up for an early day of work, which turned into a TERRIBLE day where I was given crap for everything I did. Nothing was good enough or it was too good, so I was given the ‘over achiever’ ‘super-righteous’ smug remark.

So, the switch was dramatic and I was asking God for patience ALL DAY–I really need to talk to Him more, cause I really haven’t pursued time with Him…so I suppose it was a good way to force me into talking to Him…

But, coming home to Rizo’s hug changed it all.
She listened to me & I to her as we exchanged life walking to a coffee shop.

I miss my times with her.

We were spontaneously invited to devour chinese at a friend’s apartment over some very ‘travelistic’ conversation.
Dreaming about traveling is always on my favorites list.


After all that…I sit here cuddled under a blanket with tea, sharing Poppins with Rizo.

The comfort of her silence and presence is just as powerful as her exchange of thoughts.

I love the people God has given me to love…and yet, I fail so miserably at loving…

I just don’t think I’ve planted myself enough to understand love to the point of which I think I do. My loving them is so un-matched by the amount they show me that in possible comparison I feel like I never give enough…or give it wrongly, confusing it with something else.

Ehh, I’m just rambling in smog.

{{note to self; work on reading the Bible this week to understand Love}}


One thought on “Love Under Smog

  1. It meant so much to me that you could come to the musical Sarah, I LOVED seeing you there!! ❤ Happy late Thanksgiving and I hope to see you soon (:
    Have a great week at work!


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