Passionate Reality

Love has a phenomenal way of impacting our lives…more so shaping them into what they will become.
It is a motivator for our actions and possibly a director of our paths.

Many are confused on what love really is…
Starting off with those three words, “I love you” and ending with a bitter, hurtful, angry separation; this is almost half of relationships…sad, isn’t it?
Do you know why?
I have my suspicions, of course, they could be wrong–like any other subject…
I changed my blog name to “Translucent Times” for a reason…my heart is in this blog. I’m translucent in many events and thoughts…so this is my deep inner self
…here is my elaboration:

Many people want excitement, adventure, and passion. Those three words may turn into “I love what I feel with you”. If love is based on feelings, how fickle and silly. If I went into a relationship with the mindset of it not being exciting ’till death do us part’ then, why would I enter into the relationship anyway? I’ll just get hurt in the end…
I guess many people focus on very temporary passion.

People often are confused on this subject…thee greatest subject: Love
Marriages begin with vows; choosing to love the other until last breath, despite the circumstances of life.
Love is a choice, not a feeling.

There is a difference between love and passion; choice and emotion.
Agape love

God loved Israel despite their horrid lifestyle. He chose to love them based on His promise to be their God, and them His children.

A man named Jacob, who lived a very, very, very long time ago, worked seven years for “Rachel, who was lovely in form and beautiful,”.
“So, Jacob served seven years to get Rachel, but they seemed like only a few days to him because of his love for her.”
He hardly saw her throughout that time; he chose to love her before he even knew her heart…and kept choosing, for seven years without reward among them.

A king, who lived equally as long ago as Jacob, wrote a song about him and his wife.
Within the verses lie the result of what love yields.
Love leads to Passion
“Turn your eyes from me; they overwhelm me”
“altogether lovely”
“I am faint with love”
“…come away with me”
“Love is as strong as death, its jealousy unyielding as the grave, it burns like blazing fire, like a mighty flame. Many water cannot quench love; rivers cannot wash it away”

 I just watched “The Vow” today, it’s about a young couple who hadn’t been married long at all, who were madly in love and passionate with each other. One snowy evening, a truck rear-ends them, causing the wife to be hospitalized for some time, due to head trauma, resulting in memory loss.
She forgets her marriage, everything before it she remembers…but not the best years of his life.
He loves her…the tug on my heart, feeling his deep, serving, silently screaming love for her to come back to him grew immensely.
The best part of this movie is that its based on a true story.

I would love to have passion as the king described; blazing fire, unquenchable, strong as death.

I have asked myself a few times, “why do I want to get married?”
the question has lingered…for so many passionate reasons it has lingered.
I think I can explain a corner of why:
&&I’m not meant to be alone: Gen 2:18
Although friendships are an important part of life, there is no human companionship as close as that of a husband and wife.
&&Ephesians says “wives submit to your husbands”
One day, I will marry a man so beyond any amazing degree I’ve ever known.
I interpret this command in Ephesians to be one of great, and I mean great importance.
On my wedding day, I’m showing that he is worth submitting to; conforming to his thoughts, opinions, desires.
My life will be his, everything I am will be his.

But, this takes leadership. It takes a respectful man to be worth having.
If women are to submit, then the man should be leading…leading out of love, not controlling.
He will help her grow spiritually and lead her on a journey walking the Way. He’ll fight her fights and bring her over the treacherous waters of life.
If he leads with a good heart, she’ll want to follow.

One thing I have recently found out…waiting to experience the representation of Christ’s love for the church has the possibility to be one of the hardest things I’ve yet to do.


Journal Entry 1998

After buying amazing bookends at my local antique store, I rearranged my shelves.

Yesterday, I was painting with Mi Amor, while brainstorming ideas for a tattoo that is a heritage/lineage/travel/reminder. 
I have some ideas of what I ABSOLUTELY want in it, and some that would be neat to include. I just want a small wrist tattoo–it’ll probably hurt more than my first, but “pain is only temporary”.
So, part of it will be a sail boat and on the sail will have a pipe: representation of both of my grandpas.

I was thinking about it today, of course, and decided to open up my Grandpa’s hope chest that he made me.

I was rummaging through the various memories and found this (chosen excerpts):

 “Sarah’s Journal”
I had a good day. I think about my Grandpa Captain and I feel sad. He died on 2-22-96.
I read to daddy and I made him go to sleep. When I was riding my bike I was going to go by a truck when it was backing out of the drive way. I almost got hit but the truck stopped and the man let me go by.
I ate 2 delicious strawberries from my garden today. I made a potion of flowers, leaves, dirt and sticks.
I went to the library with Mom, Dave & Josh. I watched my library movie
I went to Wal-Mart to get some velcro shoes, but didn’t find any.
I cleaned up my room when there was a big mess.
I fell down today; I slipped on the rug in the entry. I hurt very bad.
I painted the back part of the shed with mommy and Dave.
I went for a bike ride and I stopped to watch a cement truck. The cement went down a slide
I found a tube that had coloring in it, I shouldn’t have touched it because the coloring is hard to get off. I was talking to Josh and I accidentally rubbed it on my forehead. It was bright pink.
I went to the plant farm with mom today, I picked out snap dragons.
I was crying today because I didn’t get to go on Josh’s swing.
I got in trouble by daddy, the big Giant, when I went out of our yard.
I collected feathers and clam shells at the beach.
I sorted some stuffed animals for the children in Mexico who don’t have any.
I played frisbee and frisbee golf with daddy.
I played soccer with Dave after I went to the park.
I want to skip writing in my journal today, because I can’t think of what I did.
I rode my bike through a mud puddle. I saw 2 hummingbirds sucking food out of the feeder. The nectar is sticky.
I went to the Detroit zoo last week. I saw a snake and it had a mouse in its mouth.

My my how time flies 

Refined Character: Humility

Interestingly enough, God answered my prayer…

Ever find it perplexing knowing that when God answers your prayers, it may actually be a “No” or “Later”?

I prayed for change…
It hurts to change.
I’m being stripped of my pride…
I never thought of myself as a prideful person, until I realized the hurt I was experiencing was due to my own actions.
In the process of a prideful fit, the Spirit was showing me the right path and I stubbornly crossed my arms and refused to lighten up.
My life sucked for three days

Sure, I covered well, but on the inside, my heart was aching so hard.
I was a confused mess and was trying to deal with a waterfall of emotions…
Going from calm streams to rapids is quite the transition.

 I’m beginning to realize how difficult the balance is that we are called to be.
Unselfish, but with thinking yourself valuable; not worthless.
Loving, but understanding the various ways to show it.
Prayerful, but not ignorant of the actions needed to be taken.

The list goes on…

Amidst my conflict, I realized how much this is preparing me for marriage.
Sure, it’s probably years away–but that’ll give me plenty of practice in the meantime.

How wonderful it is, this time of the year to see guys carrying flowers.
To see women with sparks in their eyes.
There literally is “Love in the Air” 

I admire Valentine’s day because its a reminder, amongst other things, of once again forgetting yourself and focusing on your relationships.

Unselfishly serving Mi Amor is going to take some time.
I am so selfish, all too often.
But, just like Christ, I won’t go into marriage to be served, but TO serve.

12 When he had finished washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. “Do you understand what I have done for you?” he asked them…15 I have set you an example that you should do as I have done for you.”

Practicing this lifestyle now, will help me with all the relationships in my life.
Christ is my perfect example of humility…

I am so slow sometimes…Its awesome He still loves me.

“Poor empty pants with nobody inside them.”

Is it just me or is Dr. Seuss extremely awesome at giving us false hope? 

Like, why can’t we all have little friends floating on dandelions? Do you know how handy that would be for hide-and-go-seek?!

What about “You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You’re on your own.  And you know what you know.
And YOU are the guy who’ll decide where to go.”….as if we can leave just like that: in a heartbeat…

AND where’s my Wocket?! I have a ton of pockets–all of which are vacant.

How incredible would it be to have Mr. Brown as your teacher?

Although, Dr. Suess is one talented writer… he’s an inspiration throughout each book.

“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

“If things start happening, don’t worry, don’t stew, just go right along and you’ll start happening too.”

Yeah…I guess he’s a great balance. =]

“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living.”