Mmmm, I love the taste of Jesus on my lips. Yup, that’s right. 🙂 I love it when I feel so close to mi dulce Salvador. I love that feeling when I want to go spin in circles, like I used to do when I was a little girl, all around the yard, face up to the sky, smile unforcefully pasted to my face, with arms stretched out in love.

I just watched the movie “Faith Like Potatoes” with my parents. I had seen it before. But just like Bible verses, sometimes your heart and your life are different and react other ways than before. So, while watching this movie, I just felt God. I know, I know, I KNOW for sure that want to be a missionary for Christ in other lands. Who knows if He wants me to be full time, or just part time.

A marvelous quote from this movie:

The condition for a miracle is difficulty, however the condition for a great miracle is not difficulty, but impossibility.

Oh, Lord, grant me faith to allow a great miracle to be seen and heard. Let me be used by you. Help me trust you, Jesus.

Isn’t it interesting how far our minds can float and just rant about Christ? ha. It makes me smile. He is just…so desirable. I can talk about Him for hours. Of course, in doing so I’ll begin talking to myself, rather than anybody around me. But, blogging helps. ‘Cause, as previously stated in other posts, I feel like my posts sometimes turn into me just talking to Christ. It’s another way for me to feel comfortable sharing my feelings, thoughts, and heart with mi dulce Salvador; my sweet Saviour.

I want to wait for Christ. I want Him to move mountains through me. I don’t want to die while being still. I want to be a martyrdom.

Here’s a collection of lyrics that have touched my heart and have become prayers to the Artist of my life.

While I’m waiting, I will serve you, while I’m waiting, I will worship, while I’m waiting, I will not fail, oh Lord.
Show me how to love like You have loved me. Break my heart for what breaks Yours.
Redeem the years I’ve thrown away, I’m ready to make good on what I’ve wasted. I’m asking you to shape my heart, I want to be your work of art.
Your will above all else, still my purpose remains, the art of losing myself in bringing You praise. My heart and my soul-I give You control, consume me from the inside out, Lord.
Don’t let me lose my sight of You, I don’t wanna fall away from You; gravity is pulling me on down.
And I rest in the shelter of Your love
And I rest in the wonder of Your Grace
And I rest in the shelter of Your love
And I rest in the wonder of You


Silly Spiraling

Oh, ridiculous me. A bit ago, God pulled an “Abraham” on me; He told me to do destroy something that He put  together (I know He put it together, because He told me)
Genesis 22:2 Then God said, “Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about.”

GOD ASKED ABRAHAM TO SACRIFICE HIS ONLY SON, WHOM GOD GAVE TO SARAH AND ABRAHAM…ha…wow…that’s some definite trust testing there!

Genesis 22:3 Early the next morning Abraham got up…

Dear Lord, I was definitely NOT as quick at listening as Abraham was. It took me a long time to realize what God was doing and to free-fall into His arms and just trust Him unconditionally. I obviously have issues trusting God.
I cannot believe how I go through this spiral…I always come back to the point where I’m wanting to be in control–I’m choleric, it happens. I just don’t want it to happen with the Musician of my music-noted life. Sometimes I go out of key. I put in flats. In the position I was in, I wanted to be ULTIMATELY sure that it was God’s voice, not my head.

Genesis 22:10-12 Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son. But the angel of the Lord called out to him from Heaven, “Abraham! Abraham!” “here I am,” he replied. “Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”

How quickly Abraham knew it was not his own head…It took DAYS of the thought to be repeated and for ironic random people to say something to me that totally related to this problem I didn’t tell them about. It was until THEN that I realized it was God talking. He was speaking to me! AH YES!
OH wait…I have to do this, Lord??? Oh, God, You know all I want is to follow your directing, You are all that means anything in this world.
Then, believe that Sarah.
So, when I was about to deal with the problem..and basically create pain in my soul from doing so…God stopped me.
He pulled His Abraham story to my face.
Oh man, *wipes sweat off forehead* thanks God…ha, You know I was really worried…please let me be more like Abraham next time, and just DO IT.

This is a really long post. ha sorry.

But honestly, I REALLY want to get a permanent reminder that can be in my face EVERYDAY so that I remember what it was like to feel the pain and the hard willingness, etc…because I NEVER want that again; I want to trust my Lover unconditionally.
My way of doing that.
A tattoo.
When I’m old enough… 🙂
I will explain what it will look like eventually, but for now, it’s just in my thoughts and on doodled paper.

I pray that this post will speak to you, trust God, it’s SO MUCH EASIER THAN FIGHTING HIM!