Absence

“Absence makes the heart grow fonder”

Meaning: the lack of something increases the desire for it.

The Roman poet Sextus Propertius gave us the earliest form of this saying in Elegies:

“Always toward absent lovers love’s tide stronger flows.”

The contemporary version appears in The Pocket Magazine of Classic and Polite Literature, 1832, in a piece by a Miss Stickland:

‘Tis absence, however, that makes the heart grow fonder.

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I have realized that this phrase is so true. That’s why I believe that saving my first kiss for my wedding day will make my marriage stronger. I have a cousin who did this and he and his wife are so in love its adorable. After five years of marriage they still act as though they are newlyweds.

An invisible bond is created when absence is present. (haha)

I wonder if the writer of that saying went through much heartache and had to find the truth of the line before he wrote it, to know the extent of its certainty.

Panama’s first couple weeks with me in its midst will be stomach churning and emotionally hard for me. It will be brutal to be away from all the amazing people who I have bonded with. I guess that I just have to focus on the Lord and trust that He can help me through it.
If I focus on what I left, I will never know what I missed. I don’t want to miss a thing.

I pray that the friendships I will leave behind will become stronger when I come back.

Absence will make our hearts grow stronger and I look forward to that improvement.


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I’m trying

I have thought a ton about my character lately. I have read a few books this year that are helping me realize the different personalities and characteristics and basic nature of people. They have made me reflect on my life; pushing me to change.

I need to change.

Too many times have I felt like nothing is wrong and wow my life is great.  But it’s in those times where I need to pursue God the most.
In the last month, our church’s topic for Sunday School is marriage.
At home my parents have talked about it more with me as well.
A while ago I made a list of characteristics or abilities that I would like in a future husband, well, I think that it’s important for everybody to do this.
One of the things that I want in a future husband is one who is willing to pursue God when he’s not in a crisis.
I want this too.
I know what it feels like to just look to God in the hard times, or when something is going on that you need God’s help, BUT I am trying to change that.
I want to begin pursuing God every day, not just when the road gets extra bumpy.

Another way for me to change is that I would like to think more. I need to stop spewing out the first thing that comes to my head and THINK before I speak. It happens too often in my life, and I fear that I hurt people because of my quick mouth.

I hope I become a more humble person.

I want to begin SAYING my compliments to people. Sometimes, I think in my head, “Wow, she looks SO great today!” or “Man, that is a really great hair cut on him” or whatever. But you know what? I don’t say them out loud, and by george I don’t know why!!  Speaking my compliments needs practice, cause everybody needs to hear those nice things everyday. It’s a confidence booster, and too often is there something hard going on in our life and we just need an uplifting moment.

I pray that you all reflect your character as well. Ask God to show you what needs change and act upon His answer.

God, thank you for showing me my weaknesses, help me focus on You through this time of change.


Amo a mi mamá

For too long I have neglected my lovely blog-land. I have decided that I’m best at keeping up with posts when I don’t have obligations to it, when I just write because I can.

Mother’s day was two days ago, and I would like to talk about my mom.

This last weekend I realized that I honestly don’t give back enough. My mom is always sacrificing and trying to make life better for those around her, and I don’t show her enough love in return for her hard efforts.
I love the way that my mom strokes my hair and massages it. There’s nothing like a mother’s touch.
I love her determination and concentration on projects.
Sometimes, when I’m sitting in church and she’s playing the piano prelude, I love just watching her fingers gracefully float across the keys and transform the lull into an uplifting peace.
Her creativity is so helpful to my life. I have come to her for suggestions on gifts many times, and she ALWAYS has a wonderful idea that STRIKES my imagination.
The many lessons and helpful skills she has taught me are not always through telling me, but by showing me in her life and allowing me to observe. I have learned a lot from her, and am grateful that she is and will always be my mother.
Some of my favorite memories:
Waking up to music that she put on the stereo that morning.
When she sits down to the piano and I can just sit and listen. Or when I was little, dance to it gracefully thinking that I would magically turn into a ballerina.
When my parents dance.
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These are just some of the reasons why I love my mom and the lovely things that bring happiness when I think about her.

Oh how she loves me
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sadly, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to tell her how much she truly means to me.
But, for now, I can just try.

Realization:
I will be homesick when I go to Panama…


Oh how hard…

.Day 7.

.God.

I have neglected this so much, it’s not cool. I had tried being consistent in my blogging, but I failed.

I will still try, but no promises that I can continue with my thirty-day Genuine Living.

Thank goodness that God doesn’t break His promises!!!
I love seeing rainbows after the rain–remembering how magnificent my Creator is!

Just take time this week to reflect on how mighty//strong//consistent//merciful//compassionate//unselfish//etc.. God is!!!!